Ari's Diary February 2010
Dear Diary
Things changed so fast. I was so sure I'd be going back to jail. When I got that call to go see Roman I was sure that's what he was going to tell me. Instead I find out that I'm free. This is the best news ever. Now I don't have to worry about anything. I can be in Melanie's wedding and I don't have to leave Brady. I wouldn't have wanted to go back. It would have been really weird since it would have been the same place as Nicole. Now that would have been really weird. The weight has been lifted so I can finally get on with my life without this hanging over my head.
I'm almost afraid that this is just a dream. I'll wake up and find myself in prison. I might have to pinch myself a few times before it finally sinks in that I'm really free. It is the best feeling in the world. I have my life back. I'm not even going to think about Mr Big because I'm free as a bird. I don't have to sell drugs anymore. This is a fresh start. I can live my life again and I know I won't ever go back to jail. That is one thing that I'm certain of that I'm not going back there.
Another bonus is having Brady. It would have been such a nightmare having to leave him behind. Things are going so great with him that it would have been impossible to just leave him. I'm just lucky that I have such a great big brother and of course Roman too since both of them helped make me a free woman. I feel like celebrating my freedom and of course I want Brady right there with me. I should get ready since Brady's picking me up for a night out on the town.
Dear Diary
I'm so glad that Melanie didn't go the ugly bridesmaids dresses route. I really love the dress. I'm so happy for her and of course I'm happy for me too since I get to be there. I wasn't sure I'd be able to be there but I will be. I would have worn an ugly dress for this wedding since I'm able to be there and I'd rather wear something ugly instead of being in jail. I don't even want to think about how horrible it would have been to be in the same prison as Nicole of all people. That would be a total nightmare.
I just love Brady so much. He gave me a bracelet that belonged to his mother. That means so much that he'd give me something like that. Of course at first I thought it was a ring since it was in a ring box. I think I stopped breathing for a moment but inside was this bracelet. It is so beautiful. And he can kiss me anytime like that because that was a great kiss.
Dear Diary
I do feel bad for being happy when Melanie's in the hospital. I feel like I'm going to wake up in a cell but I woke up in Brady's arms. It does seem like a dream but Melanie getting shot is a total nightmare. I'm going to go visit her later. I have to work but Brady's already gone to see her. I'm sure he'll call me if there's been any change. This is so horrible. She's supposed to be on her honeymoon instead of being in the hospital fighting for her life.
It is so crazy how things can be so good and so bad at the same time. I'm thrilled to be free but I also feel horrible about Melanie being in the hospital fighting for her life. And of course Sydney's still missing. I'm sure Rafe will find her. When he's determined to do something he'll do it. I can vouch for that because he helped me. I don't know what I'd do without him. I know I'd be back in jail if it wasn't for him. I just hate the waiting to find out how Melanie is.
Dear Diary
How horrible to get good news and bad news all on the same day. Thankfully Melanie's going to be fine but I also found out that Sydney is probably dead. This is just awful. Rafe wants to keep searching but he's not going to tell Sami. This is a total nightmare to lose another child. I can't even begin to imagine how she's feeling right now like her whole world has come crashing down.
I just don't like that Brady's going to be the one that's telling Nicole about this. Why does EJ want that for anyway? Can't Chloe just all Nicole or go to see her after all she is her best friend? So we got into a fight about it. There are times when I feel like there are three of us in this relationship. I really hate this. I don't want him to go see her but I know he likely will. It's like he's addicted to the woman and she's bad news. She's the one that started this mess.
Things changed so fast. I was so sure I'd be going back to jail. When I got that call to go see Roman I was sure that's what he was going to tell me. Instead I find out that I'm free. This is the best news ever. Now I don't have to worry about anything. I can be in Melanie's wedding and I don't have to leave Brady. I wouldn't have wanted to go back. It would have been really weird since it would have been the same place as Nicole. Now that would have been really weird. The weight has been lifted so I can finally get on with my life without this hanging over my head.
I'm almost afraid that this is just a dream. I'll wake up and find myself in prison. I might have to pinch myself a few times before it finally sinks in that I'm really free. It is the best feeling in the world. I have my life back. I'm not even going to think about Mr Big because I'm free as a bird. I don't have to sell drugs anymore. This is a fresh start. I can live my life again and I know I won't ever go back to jail. That is one thing that I'm certain of that I'm not going back there.
Another bonus is having Brady. It would have been such a nightmare having to leave him behind. Things are going so great with him that it would have been impossible to just leave him. I'm just lucky that I have such a great big brother and of course Roman too since both of them helped make me a free woman. I feel like celebrating my freedom and of course I want Brady right there with me. I should get ready since Brady's picking me up for a night out on the town.
Dear Diary
I'm so glad that Melanie didn't go the ugly bridesmaids dresses route. I really love the dress. I'm so happy for her and of course I'm happy for me too since I get to be there. I wasn't sure I'd be able to be there but I will be. I would have worn an ugly dress for this wedding since I'm able to be there and I'd rather wear something ugly instead of being in jail. I don't even want to think about how horrible it would have been to be in the same prison as Nicole of all people. That would be a total nightmare.
I just love Brady so much. He gave me a bracelet that belonged to his mother. That means so much that he'd give me something like that. Of course at first I thought it was a ring since it was in a ring box. I think I stopped breathing for a moment but inside was this bracelet. It is so beautiful. And he can kiss me anytime like that because that was a great kiss.
Dear Diary
I do feel bad for being happy when Melanie's in the hospital. I feel like I'm going to wake up in a cell but I woke up in Brady's arms. It does seem like a dream but Melanie getting shot is a total nightmare. I'm going to go visit her later. I have to work but Brady's already gone to see her. I'm sure he'll call me if there's been any change. This is so horrible. She's supposed to be on her honeymoon instead of being in the hospital fighting for her life.
It is so crazy how things can be so good and so bad at the same time. I'm thrilled to be free but I also feel horrible about Melanie being in the hospital fighting for her life. And of course Sydney's still missing. I'm sure Rafe will find her. When he's determined to do something he'll do it. I can vouch for that because he helped me. I don't know what I'd do without him. I know I'd be back in jail if it wasn't for him. I just hate the waiting to find out how Melanie is.
Dear Diary
How horrible to get good news and bad news all on the same day. Thankfully Melanie's going to be fine but I also found out that Sydney is probably dead. This is just awful. Rafe wants to keep searching but he's not going to tell Sami. This is a total nightmare to lose another child. I can't even begin to imagine how she's feeling right now like her whole world has come crashing down.
I just don't like that Brady's going to be the one that's telling Nicole about this. Why does EJ want that for anyway? Can't Chloe just all Nicole or go to see her after all she is her best friend? So we got into a fight about it. There are times when I feel like there are three of us in this relationship. I really hate this. I don't want him to go see her but I know he likely will. It's like he's addicted to the woman and she's bad news. She's the one that started this mess.
