Mom still isn't home from the hospital. She had some kind of seizure just before she was about to be released. I don't know what's going on. I really need to find my bio dad. I looked through Mom's stuff to see if she had any information about him. I found his name on my birth certificate. So I'm going to go all Veronica Mars and try to find him. I don't know what to do.
Miranda's parents have been great but I need family. I've always loved being an only child but right now I would kill to have a sister even if she was totally annoying. I guess I could have one out there since my dad could have kids. He could be married to someone and have another family. Should I even bother? I wish I knew what to do. I'm not sure if Mom's going to die. She's really sick and the doctors aren't telling me anything.
I decided to go back home. It is home even though I haven't been here long. I just wanted to be alone. I thought Miranda's parents were going to make a fuss but they were cool about it. That makes me wonder if Mom's dying. I have the right to know after all she is my Mom but they all just think I'm some stupid kid. I might be a kid but I'm not an idiot. I know that sometimes people die. I just wish I knew if that's what's happening here.
I might be getting worked up over nothing. Maybe the doctors can fix her. I hope they can. I don't know what would happen to me if Mom died. No I can't think like that. Mom can't die. I need her. I might not even like my dad. He might be some big loser. There has to be some reason why I've never met him before. Now I can't even ask her because the doctors are stingy about letting me visit her. I have to wait until tomorrow to see her.
I might try to do a seance. I know I was supposed to do one with Miranda but I think I should do it alone. I don't know what will happen. Miranda's great but she can be such a scaredy cat. A cat knocked over a trash can outside and she practically peed her pants. I think I'll write a list of questions to ask. I know there are some candles in the kitchen. Since it is raining the power could go out so having flashlights and candles ready would be a good idea. Maybe I'll make contact with the other side.